i broke my mobile phone

i broke my phone a couple of weeks ago. I tried holding it together with tape for a while but it finally gave up and passed away last friday afternoon. I experienced a brief moment of panic....what if i'm out and someone calls and i miss something? what if my freelance clients call? what if my mom calls? how am i going to know where and when to meet people?!

But then something strange happened, after a few days an eerie calm set in. I no longer worried about those things, or thought about them constantly. I KNEW people couldn't get in touch with me at a moments notice, i accepted it, and my mind went on to other things. I noticed after a while that i didn't really miss anything, that people could WAIT to talk to me and things that i may have reacted to immediately were ordered into a space in time that i chose. I really realized how much of my mental energy is taken up just thinking about these things, whether it's checking my email, or having my phone on me at all times 'just in case'. So i've made a promise to myself to leave the phone at home sometimes, to wander out into the world on my own unconnected. To enjoy being unreachable. So, if at anypoint i don't answer...don't worry about me, just leave a message.